if only last time i have the courage and treasure the right timing and believe in myself ... and dont focus all about winning(even i dont really have a choice) .. everything would be so different.. i think i will so much happier ... i always tell people dont use the word if only if only but myself .. hahs i can only say people but my heart cant actually do it ... is just that i dont say out the word... but sometime darring choice who really dare to make and how much confident do you have and what will you left with... no need to say still the same word if only .... haiz...