i really have no idea what am i doing and if what i doing is right. in the past i will always think, what's the responsibility i have to carry and what will be the consequence. but then, now.. i am a little tired. cause if i always goes at what i should do, slowly it will cause lots of trouble. then i go by what i want to do. well this solve whole lots of trouble then it back to the result... i analyse it, i may not be able to handle the consequence then i am jam again.

now i feel that pining high hope on people may not be a good choice or trusting them just because of my feeling. cause normally i would analyse before trusting. but this time i totally let my feeling over-rule me... ooo well... i am mcenroe after all....