a decision that i hate yet has todo it. and i will... alright then. =)

hmm... hope she's well. time really flies. somehow i don't feel she's really being appreciative. just feel that she wont even tell me that she flying if i didn't ask. somehow i am always in her "no need tell" friend zone. hmm... abit sick and tired of it now. i guess if i really feels to the limit... really need to put to an end rather than a good start again... hmm... guess really need to find a day to ask her and have a good chat with her, tell her what i want. if really all don't work out i believe i concern her long enough since she doesn't really seems to care or appreciate. but i really hope that's the last resort. i know i will surely regret but is definitely better that always no being notify or being appreciate. atleast i can spend my effort on those who really spend time to understand or talk to me. especially those who i have neglected. haiz... no matter i will surely make next month the last month. if all doesn't work out then i will really force out. if i doesn't have my answers so be it. i will just take it and if she her own promises or own work i will just tell her and that's it... haiz, is being too long and too much for me to take it, haiz.... mce ar... .................................