mixed feeling

When James was 6 years old, this was his first encounter to have mixed feeling for his nursery graduation performance. For weeks, he had been practising for his performance, and he had been asking his parents if they will come for his performance. He had also pleaded them to come by all means and they agreed. 

When the day had finally arrived, he got up early. when the alarm rang, this is the fastest moment that he had prepared for school before. He had placed everything around his bed and he even tied the shoelace on his bag in case his shoe "lost". He rushed down the stairs and start waiting for his school bus excitedly. when his turn for performing starts, while performing on stage he had been glancing around for his parent and he finally managed to make a connection to a familiar eye contact.  This was when he danced the happiest moment in his life! Until life really struck him when the crowd slightly rearrange and realise that is not his family... At the moment he drops from perfect state happiness to extreme state of sadness. 

James taught that he might have mistaken and decided to find his parent in the crowd so he scout around the crowded until the crowd had already dispersed. when he was returning home, this was when he had never felt so heavy in his footsteps before. When he reached his house, he asked his parent where were they and they replied they had forgotten about it....  

 This is the very day, that James had learned about the true definition of speechless and the moment from heaven fall from hell. ( in the perspective of 6 years old)