to me now, i seriously have no idea what is family where member doesnt build on trust and too much paranormal stuff. mce will go insane soon, may be because i want revenge too much and i am really supressing it with lots of will power. i might not be able to hold it any longer. unless i have my revenge and say out all the things i want and do all i want and maybe even punching if not i may not be able to find the inner peace i am seeking. mce really couldnt supress it any long after 7 years now. really, really... if my tears really drop is really not i wanted.dont constrain me any more for i may not handle myself anymore