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Haiz…now I feel so tired… I suddenly few that I so lousy, I thought that I myself am a fast learner but when at work after working for two month I only able to reach the bell target but seeing that a girl able to reach the gong target which is of higher level less than two week I really few ashamed of myself. I know that I am competitive and should know my limits but I just stop comparing with other people which are better, I always tell myself to be the first no matter in any activity but I can say seldom achieve it. No matter how good I am, I am I just found it hard to be a people’s person. Or maybe I am always too confident, so even better to say I am lousy…haiz… if only I am able to know what I am good at and fast or I am really just nothing on earth.