actually sometime i am really thinking... do you really need me in your life. ever since we split off to poly... you have never think of me, update me your status and even contacted me. i always need to initiate the first conversation and you will take ages to reply. ok... bf. i understand. but now... kinda of really tired to take care of you when i don't feel appreciated. whenever we have conversation, i am always compared to your insignificant friends. is like you have never let me in into your life. your updates is always from my other friends, so what am i to you?
hmm... when i ask my friend to meet up together with you to help you. you can just last minute dont turn up and casually says that we can go out without you. but the main purpose of us meeting up is to know you and help you. they are all my good and genuine friends yet you not even appreciative of what i am doing. again and again you back fire your words and promise twice w/o proper explanation and apologize. even i have told you, you just don't seems to appreciate.
then comes again, i really see no reason why one sms you will take like 2 week and no reply till i prompt you. is that how impt you deem my message to be? i know you are busy and you are going some obstacle. haven't i always be there with u since sec school but yet again you always cast my by the side. what ever happen i will never be updated from you but by some other people. i really dont believe you cant reply and say you are busy and you will reply later. is it really so difficult?
if that the way you want and always just ignore me as and when you want and really feel thats i am just another sand in your life. i believe this time i will make it clear to myself and listen to my friends advice to let it go. not because i bear to or i hate you, but i really believe that you will be better on yourself rather then we always fight and hurt each other. even though i am happy that you are angry due to my words which means that you care but i dont think i really healthy if we constantly fight.
sometime i even feel that you are playing games with me.
i know you have many people to dote you and love you, but if my devotion is not really important... then i rather use it on other people and help others out. rather then continue this one side devotion. is really tired and really burdening me down.
if so, i believe this time we can really conclude that are we really meant to be a couple, good friend, acquaintance or stranger. this time what ever my decision i made, i promise that i will never look back and whatever happen i hope is best for both of us. i admit this time i am selfish, but i believe i have always been by your side long enough and you never seem to appreciate.
but my promise with you will always remain there, as long as we still remain atleast friends. sorry if i have to be stern this time, cause i think is time i really heed my friend advice and i really cant do this for any more years down the road.
but if you not going to reply me, i promise you. you can really see the last of me... i wont burden you any more and let all your others friend be there concerning you, be there for you and dote you. for i am just another insignificant person around you. isnt it so... :) just hope that we can be close one last time before we ends or begin anything.
