Inspiration source...

Have anyone ever wonder why suddenly have I always want to improve myself. If you all have joined the same a-math tuition class, I think you all will also be like me. In the class you may not believe that I am the last in the class everyone is just so good. The most important factor is that I finally able to feel the friendliness that I used to have in primary school. I think the person that really inspires most is Eunice from cedar secondary school, even though I only speak to her once but the... is really indescribable by words alone. (Don’t imagine too much) First is Nicholas Foo she is the second girl that I really look up on, she smart, friendly, quite gorgeous… …haha ….is just a feeling. So being compare I just feel that I am so small and wish to be like them so smart, thinking that after ‘O’ level the class will be dismiss I really quite sad but happy that this is the best tuition mates: the cedar, Chong Boon, Deyi, Bishan, CHIJ, Seragoon and all the company and teacher: Mr Tay I have. Just wish to say thanks for all the fun time all the best for the GCE ‘O’ level.

my exam feeling

Today when in a-math period I then suddenly realise that how much I had forgotten about a-math. In the afternoon when starting of my a-math tuition I am struggling to keep up on what the teacher is talking. Also thinking that my n level is round the corner I am really started to scared now how? I could on blame on myself for having such a bad memory. Really sad to have such a brain. Furthermore my other subject just can’t seem to go inside my head, now I am really is very frighten.

my birthday is coming

Just to say my birthday is coming, is at 3 of October actually that day quite sad. Got exam o my god!! I am thinking to put a wish list at the side but don’t know how haha, I thinks this year cannot say birthday must say exam day, I am really scared that I will not score well. I hope that I have about 300 now then I could by my self an mp4 a Casio watch which I always wanted. Say of it is quite funny le every time when I save enough to buy the watch, something will sure to pop up then I have to save again. Also I want a new running shoe. Hmm… do you think that I am good at daydreaming? I also think so haha… actually I already don’t know what is birthday le, thinking if my mum still remembers my birthday? Year past I think she long forgotten le, so be it, use to it le. Hope that I can grow taller... haha

u all misunderstood

hey the girlfriend i mean in not girlfriend is girl-friend's. Is just a female friend, all my friends will know that my looks and my problem's iwont have a girl friend one. Even have is also after exam but hard to find the one i like even if i found the girl may not even like me. so dont misunderstood ok, haha. Please dont try introduce girls to me i believe in fate and destiny.
Wish those who have a sutiable partner a long relation of happiness =P......

A story

this time i feel like telling a story so....
Once there is a horse, who use to have everything in his life all the greeny grass that the world have, everyone who knew him grew envy of him. This horse have a 'ex'-dad(ED) and a lovely mum, a brother that dote him, a sister that care of him. Things used to go smoothly in his life, he dont have to worry about a single thing in his life however things started to change when his 'ex'-fathar meet with difficulty that became unreasonable and he didnt even try to stand on his feet futhermore causing great unhappiness to him. This greatly cause the horse to live in the darkness of woods. Snow fell, sun fell, mum 'link' away by ED, the litlle horse heart bleed every day tear started flooding the river. The little horse started to grow afraid of the darkness and his character started to change. Learn that nothing can be trust accept himself, so the horse started to learn to 'think' for self-defense. So from then all bird flew away and the sun set for eternity, so the horse also learn to be independent. The horse never regret what he had done as knowing that friend's will only be sad near him and they are also not to be trust as the little horse scared that they betray him. So the little horse decided to live in fear alone in his little patch of land and eat the same patch of glass

wa...so tired of study......

haiz... as you know nearly as all kid dont like study, even if you really thought that that child really like study. Maybe he is faking who knows, or he being force to. I still remember last time when i study and achive good result i would have present. Now even if i am the best i suddenly seems so useless, so sometime i wondering 'top so what' who care, even if my teaccher reward me with dozen of reward it seem so small compare to my own family that gave me. So now is i dont even feel like studying. Is my dream that is pushing me to move forward but still i still like present... haha... so that the reason i teach people. As nearly all my friend will have reward from their parent if they score well, so i want my friends to feel the satifactory and the smile. However i am not a 'good teacher' haha... at least i try my best. This few day quite bad, teach people till i get a bad sore throad but still i am happy haha. come on.. let be the best of ourselves... gogogo. I trust all of you as my friend, so let move on together......

this few days in school/lesson that learnt

Due to the existing time to meet my GCE all my subject teacher had been pressing on all my subject. Always after school my brain juice and cells will always be use up. I believe if teacher can even press me on futher i believe i can really strive, that is really my school.(not to mention school) In the matter of fact i am really quite dumb i had to work twice as hard to achive my marks but i am really happy. This few day i am also quite depress due to some ... futher more my computer even want to bully me and break down. However i really lean quite a few things, now i really understand how enviroment really change one person, just as common, fight in school is inevitable but is not as serious anyway just use to it. I also suddenly find that any obstacle is really not as heavy after being through so my trip and fall. Now i started take thing more relax just slowly think and handle, time will eventually finish the course in the matter of fact. i also suddenly felt that the world is so small really very small, small till i am tired far too tired and time is really too long and breathing getting softer and softer...

my exam/feeling/my nature

Actually i not very happy with my result, if i really say so. Even i score not so bad as said by my freind but i didnt meet my own requirement. Some say i am proud and maybe i am far too proud is ok i agree. I need the mark to meet my aim, cause i really wish to be on my own when i grow up.(you wont be understand, due to the growth of different familes) I really wish to score well, ok, i wont say i want to be the first but i just want to be the best of myself. I admit that my nature is competitive but that is only i am in secondary school, due to some trauma but that is already crave in my heart and not easy to be ware off. Some people may also dislike me also due to my charater of childishness but that my true nature, surely you all wont want a hypocrite friend. so whether you dislike or like is my charater, in any case i will also be serious when i needed to. Thinking of my english i am really worried as i didnt really write and my command of english is already so bad. Even if i didnt score well there is also no choice as i believe i really tried my best.

reminder for all ex-jing shan friend

Erm.. i really hope all my primary friend will see this message. I, chao jing and mutto decided to visit jing shan one last time and get back some of the memeries so if you all able plese send me a message or better still add me eeteow@hotmail.com in msn we will then decide when to go. i really hope i am able to meet you all one day. Hope you all still remenber the memories, i reallly miss everyone boys or girls. But i really change a lot le to the worst if you really say so, but not to ganster if you all still know and remember me. there one thing i will never change is my childish la haha hope to see you all soon


mcenroe ng (jing shan)

reason why i do not write about my life

ok... this past few year i use to have different blog, but to my horror i found out that i dont have much happy monent to write about so i decided to write about my feeling. ok if you all want me to write about my life i need to change my blog skin and need some changes but i believe it wont be much of a happiness. Do give me some idea what you all want to know, i try to comprehen all your idea. Thanks ya!! Wish all my friend good luck for their N and O level