相信自己相信我，
我一定能让你在笑起来。虽然我经历了很多，不过我已经在控制我自己在有些反面不变了。为什么就不能再认识多一次能？

我已经很尽力然你明白我了。。。 可是你的不懂于终真的让我特别累。也只能怪我，当时真的想太多了。。。 我现在什么都不想做了，很希望你能做点事。 不然就这样吧。。。你何况也不是想很多吗。。。?

i am really afraid... ... i scared if i dont handle well i might really lose something precious to me. this day come too soon, atleast tell me what u think before really go off...

guess i will have to get all busy again, my goal failed... i wasnt able to socialise with friend which i intend to interact during my break, now i have to rush rush rush again... somehow i really hate it when people tell me no, cannot with out supporting reasons

when waves splash and retreat,
when the sun drop amd rise,
when the cold become colder,
when the hot become hotter,
misses freezes to hatred,
hatred combust to wish,
for a wish not to be said,
yet hope to be known.



hidding may not be wise,
yet is a hope to last,
last may not last,
yet is a chance to survive,
for the wish to survie,
atleast there's still a hope to pin
for it to be discover.

should he give up or should not ... he dont want but will it benefit the girl and himself?he dont hate her but miss her ..

i just dont like when no one appreciate my effort after i spent so much effort on you ... i am not a saint neither am i gentlemen... i really hope u appreciate me.. i love you...

for some reason i am feeling sad now... my tears seem like going to drop any time. the one i spend the most effort doing, the first to make finish, the one i use the most feeling to write, the one i spend the most time... all gone... i guess i will just keep the one that can last and the other... ... let it go ba..mce ar mce. i finally understand the meaning the truth always hurt and everything have an end. often people say the end is the new begining but then... i l u. i will never forget... the feeling second time........................................................... i hate myself..

now i wont care if i will lose you or not... cause event i try my best to figure out the best way, i still wont work out.... so what for still trying to fingure different routes and ways where the opposite wont appreciate and understand ... i will just do what i think is right, if i will to lose you it will just mean i will have to regret.

sometime people ask me questions that i seriously dont know how to answer... sometime i felt that my way of thinking is too extreme and is not even right for human to have this kind of thought. sometime i just want to keep things to myself... ... actually i kind of know friendships most of my friendship wont actually last long cause i am keeping too much things, but the main thing is that i seriously dont know how to bring up to you and sometime the consequense i dont even dare to think about it. but when things go wrong, i always want to salvage. however in the end it never work out... i really dont want to lose you all but if i really got no choice then ... sometime i guess maybe i may not even worth your friend.. when u sad u got other friends with u, when i give u my true opinion u dont take it in heart... then what's the point might as well... if got a choice i really to hold ur hand and support you... is just my attitude...

my emotion is coming back ... for some reasons i dont know why is it getting harder aqnd harder to suppress ....

study study study .. aiyoyo.. nothing go in my head ...

有时候，我真的觉得自己超烂。。。 嗨。。。

this is what happen when you lost ... u get humiliated by people.... that's why i never wanted to lose and all because of last sem ... why am i so emotionally caught up? if not i wouldnt have to suffer this fate...if only you didnt quarrel with me and still as close as we used to.. atleast i can still believe that there is still some friends that can share and help me... yet ... now is near impossible for me to believe anymore.. eventhough i still want to play with you... but ... haiz... i just cant get out of my mind i guessyou also agree that now is not like the pass anymore.. so mce work hard like u use to so that you wont suffer the same humilliation again ... really sorry tis not that i dont want to hear you and help you ... is just that i myself isnt as strong anymore.... but is just that i dont have time anymore... but then i will still help you as lmuch as i can ... but this time only those that i a close too i guess.... but then maybe i am also just nothing

omg .... now here come all the obstacles at one go ... i really scared i cant handle it well again and end up like last sem ... but now i know that my problems cant depend on anyone ... since i learnt it the tough and rough way last sem .... but then i am really scared... i am really not ready for alot of things.....