maybe all can end today ba.... i really wish to get all my answer before the year ends...

i am going to leave you soon... :) really.. you dont need me anymore.. unlike studies i cant help you anymore. i really cant bear to hurt you anymore, neither do i want to be hurt anymore.... you are really pretty and adorable that why i hope u really be careful.... fei ji chang :)

ok! if shes not replying by today. then i wont be there asking her anymore..... this shall be the ending man.... omg!

hmm... the solutions which i came out with...

all i want is just to is just ask you all that i have thinking and tell you my feeling, then make you smile and maybe if is right say a final goodbye. why does it seems so difficult? or should i just silently fade away? why cant she believe me is for her own good? i have simulated almost like 5-6 solutions but leaving is the best solution... only way that she could learn to appreciate and treasure people that love and concern her. that's why i want to do a honest and faithful closing to her. so she will just lose me as a final friend and future she will have people who will really love, dote and treasure her. but she answers all the questions nicely and understand all i meant, then it will be a new good beginning for us... isn't that good.... just don't understand why she need to drag and drag. go out with anyone but ask me to wait. in girl language does wait equivalent to just go away and give up? or does it really mean wait? hmm ... maybe i should just ask her

why so diff to clear everything up?? haiz.... since i am also not impt. why cant let me "go in peace" rawr!! haiz... T.T

haiz... still no reply.... going reach 2359 soon. next day reaching... hmm.... feels heavy now....

i guess today is the last goodbye....

i really dont wanna leave... but if you really want it this way... then this time... i will finally accept it. but i really miss you... i am really worry for you.... and i really love you. i rather not hut you again... then i am left with no choice...