my greatest weakness is that i always stand alone ... i think u should know by now .... shouldnt you

if you were a teenage and u want to do well for studies... can you really have enough encouragement when your parent dont even care for your studies and she doesnt listen to you and listen to some stranger. can you really motivate yourself when u gone through so many things and you even dont even know who are really friend and how long can you last when u really want to yourself... the answer is there limit how much sadness can one heart take and what encouragement he need... if not sooner or later he will fall deeply . love seems to be so vague in my eyes

haiz... ..... ................

我一定要坚持到底。。。 我还不能输。好累啊。。。

i really dont understand everything .. be it work or relationships .. i suddenly feel so small ... just wondering just how long can i self motivate

i will not show anymore weakness ... that's my last motivation for you ... i really hope u can really forget the past and move on and try on... you know i will be there... but hope you know your surrounding well ...

if you really know me... i may be not as good as you really think and not as strong as you all thing... and i am really not a good choice for people to use as a role model....

do you know that money is the origin og my misery ... money no doubt i will be happy but then... can i make people miss me... when i have money am i still able to be childish and cheerful and lesser stress ...? money money ... i want but ... =) i really want ...

T.T

有时候我很想说，我多厉害也是人。。。。。。 我真的很累。

one day i want u be proud of me... u will say my name proud and happy and think of me...

sometime ... i really hate feeling alone ..................................................................................................................

有时候不知怎样。。。 我的心不时感到心酸，也在不知不觉中落下了泪。。。。

讲真的，我很不想放弃你，很想欺负你，可是时间可让我们难于见面。我一点都不喜欢文字与声音，我喜欢面对面地讲话，不然的话，很多是事都难以解释。可是。。。

you always ask me to tell you the story of her.. but actually u and her not much difference in the feeling just that the enviroment is difference... she also once lost herself and adter much effort then i get her back ... not you too please

also dont tell me talk when i know nothing can be solve in the end will be wasting my time .. i rather train ...since i am considering that i am quiting i need to find another way to keep myself fit ...

i hate it when everything all learn halfway then have to stop .... if not say need to learn finish cause lack of people when i learn finish then in the end tell me say no need already... i was like ...WTF ,... i seriously cant stand it ... but i know is for the team that's why i always try to endure.. like shao lin gun, yog ji ti quan, yog gun and jing sai gun all learn already in the end no use... i was like... you all say lack ok then i learn no need then bye bye... today now change my shao lin gun to new ji ti quan again .. then i no need learn le la ... actually i still dont mind just that i need time adjust my emotion, but then she say not happy then go .. of course i not happy la ... i was thinking since they dont appreciate what i am trying to do.. come on man... what for i stay ...now i am thinking should i quit? is true is my passion but since the team like that ... omg ... i can no longer have fun in it and destress my work .. i think now is add stress ..... now is really i got no other vocab except... i give up

请别跟我讲一切都太迟了。。。

my first time trying, hope not going to be too pain ... of course i want it to go smoothly ... let's pray...

i feel like hugging

i feel like hugging

yesterday night .. i dont know is a good thing or a bad thing ... when i have fever ... i actually sleep and dream and cried the whole night i was sleeping and wake up i was so relieve... i actually dream and cried of what happen in the past and my thought really appear in the dream ... i think this is my first time i cried for the whole night... fever may not be a bad thing after all

yesterday night really scared the hell out of me..my first time cough blood... and my fever was so high... now head a little pain

你还记得以前当你搭给我的时候，我在听这一首歌（我以为）而你说你懂这首歌，我却不让你谈这首歌也不让你唱。是因为当时你刚失恋我不想你唱到哭，因为我不在你面前我不知道要如何安慰你。。。 可是呢我最近也开始好想哭，真的是有泪不能流。我好讨厌长大，好怕我的未来，好怕我的学业，对我的家庭也好累啊。却子能背着重担一点一点地爬，我很怕有一天我真的受不了。而很多事也真的是我以为。。。 其实我什么都 不是。很希望认识我的人都能记得我的单纯，幼稚的笑，很怕真的有一天我不能单纯的笑了。。。